J and I have been back together for just over a month and so far things are great.  She’s only had one “bad day” and it reminded me of how things were and provided a great contrast to how things are now.

She injured her hand at work in late April and has needed my help to do things like hauling her to the surgeon/pharmacy/grocery store.  We’ve been to the Braves game and the movies… eaten dinner quite a bit (which is getting kind of expensive and I’ve been using my credit card, a big no-no for me usually).  The difference this time is that she actually pays for some of this stuff now.  We’ve made it clear that things need to be equal between us now.  There are still a few things that get on my nerves, but as long as we’re talking about them I don’t see any problems and I’m happier with her now than I ever was before.

As my last couple of entries mentioned, I have great difficulty living with my father.  The responsibility of taking care of an aging parent conflicting with the life of a 26-year-old, to butting heads with his care giver… it’s just stressing me out.  My brother has decided he is moving out in July.  Now I’m really stuck here…. mainly because I don’t want the house/property to go to shit.  Nobody else will do it, at least not well.

Money and the lack of work is really starting to eat away at my spirits.  I do some contract work here and there, an event or two on the weekends.  It’s usually just enough to pay my bills (the minimums at least) and comes at just the right time, but I’m sick of it.  If I weren’t at home, I’d be screwed.  The job search has been intimidating and frustrating.  I’ve been looking for something since Feb and despite landing a few interviews, nothing has come of it.  I follow all the leads my networking contacts toss my way, but there is something I’m missing… something isn’t coming together for me.  I dunno if it’s a lack of solid experience  (which I doubt) or if I’m chasing the wrong carrot.

I’m constantly told that “the” account is happening soon and the agency wants me to be on it, but I’ve been told that since March.  That is what I’m really holding-out for, as it will provide me with the account management experience that I think I need.  They throw me some bones here and there when I ask, but it’s not steady.  It would be perfect as a supplement, but not as a primary source of income.

Otherwise, what is a guy with a Bachelor’s in communication supposed to do to find work?  I finished college, so I believe I’m above working a retail/wage-job like Target or Best Buy (though I did it during Christmas… yep, no job search luck then either) or becoming a pharmacy tech again.  I’ve been too proud to inquire about unemployment benefits, but I think it’s time to go down and find out about it.  Maybe they can help out in the job search too.

Ugh.  At least I’ve got a loving girlfriend and friends.  And Batman is coming out in a couple of months.